I still can’t get it through my head that this is not going to go away. I still think after a few good days that I’m all better, and I still blame myself when I have bad days. Actually, I don’t even realize that they’re bad days. It’s a strange mental process that lets me […]
Well, healing happens, yes, but maybe even slower than I realized. I only made it through a few Karate classes back in February, and haven’t been back since. I have had more slumps since then, including one, fairly recently.
The good news is that I’m learning things. I think it’s taken me this long to […]
I am far behind in my blogging; I have several notes in my journal that I’d intended (still intend) to put up here. But I didn’t want to put this off:
Yesterday, I biked 5 miles to the bike repair store. After some loitering and a mile walk, I arrived at the dojo for my class […]
I’m famous.
I have a “lens” on squidoo.com called CFS or Fibromyalgia and Exercise? You have got to be kidding! and today I woke up to find it had some actual traffic. Some sleuthing told me that Seth Godin, the brain behind Squidoo, had mentioned it in his blog. And someone else mentioned Seth’s blog […]
Someone remind me why I’m doing this?
Today, I was weak. And I was in pain. And I thought that maybe this is a really stupid idea.
All of these people around me were working out, and I had to sit down and stretch. Why did I ever think I could do this? Fibromyalgia is just too […]
So I promised myself I wouldn’t miss any classes because I was “too sore” or “too exhausted” or “dizzy” or any of those other Fibromyalgia things. I decided I did not need to take a “break” sometimes, that I would just do it. And that’s worked pretty well…
…until last week.
The dojo was closed on Monday […]
Today I went to help Sensei remodel one of the dojos. He had put up a sign asking for volunteers. I was surprised at how few had signed up to help.
Our culture says “I’ve hired you as a teacher, so it’s your job to provide me with a facility (dojo), and to provide me with […]
Today was the end of my one-month beginners’ class, and now I am ready to join the regular class.
The regular class starts right after the beginners’ class ends, and, after a few minutes’ rest, I decided I wanted to do it, today. What was I thinking?!
Of course it was “too much.” This time I wasn’t […]
The Tuesday/Thursday class is in the evening, and it’s a good thing. I had plenty of time to decide whether to go to class tonight.
I went, and it wasn’t bad at all. Well, it was hard, but that’s good. I got to find out that I could still get through a hard class.
Have to remember […]
Last week I did five classes, and all was fine. But today wasn’t so fine.
I want to say it was the hardest class yet, but I’ve said that too many times. It was really scary, though. I kept thinking, “maybe this is where I’m supposed to quit.” I wondered if I’d pass out. I wondered […]